Underclassman no more

April 24, 2006

I’m a Junior. Whatever power and pride that should bring, I have not felt the effects. Nor do I believe I ever will.So, I’m in one of those indie music hipster lover moods. The kind where you just pop in some Undergrads and watch your past year go by. So I worked on my Undergrads soundtrack. Some of you (meaning Bakke) will be pleased to know that Ruckus added several missing artists from the soundtrack to their database. Yeah, we’re on the scene, we’ve got the lights down watching the screen…

Lots of stuff going on to make me feel kinda odd. Like the weather. It’s nice and all, but it also means I get allergies and that’s no good. I’m also kinda missing Jill. It’s been a while since I saw her, and that really needs to change. There are a ton of reminders that scream of her all over the place, and tons of stuff to make me fell pretty heartsick. Sometimes I think it would be nice to be able to date while in college, but then I realize that a lot of the girls up here are fickle, and I’m pretty happy with what I got.

I’ve also been kinda questioning my entire relationship with Jill, which may come as a shock to all of you. It’s not one of those “should I leave her?” questionings, but kinda thinking over why I love her, and what I like and what I don’t like about her. Also, we’ve been together for five and a half years, and some things have kinda evolved. I just wish that somethings didn’t change. There were a lot of fun times, but this current situation that we are in really limits it. I guess I’m stuck at one conclusion…

I really wish I could just restart the relationship in a sense. Like how things typically go when you first fall in love. You try everything to get her to like you. You don’t rely on the fact that you’ve got years backing up your love, you have to work for it. And she does too. So there’s flirting and stuff on both sides.

I’m watching the entire Bakke/Felicia thing from my vantage point, and it’s prodding me to think about this. No, they aren’t going out (in their eyes at least, but to everyone else around them they are). I honestly don’t know what’s going on. In any case, the point is that seeing the dating process from the beginning on makes a long term couple look at how to redo some stuff.

So one of the big things that is also on my mind is that Jill’s brother, Mike, got engaged this week. Major kudos to him. I really don’t know Amy, but I suppose she’s pretty cool. It kinda makes me feel like riverdancin’

To do:
Study Environmental Geo
Clean the place up and pack stuff in to boxes

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